I always wanted to believe that life was like a fairytale...there is beauty in the idea. Take Cinderella for example, she ended up getting a pretty sweet ending: a prince, a castle, and she kept all her furry little friends. I was thinking about the song she sings in the beginning of the movie as I woke up this morning.
A dream is a WISH your HEART makes...
When your fast asleep,
In dreams you will LOSE your HEARTACHE.
Whatever you wish for, you keep.
Have FAITH in your dreams, and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through...
No matter HOW your heart is GRIEVING
If you keep on BELIEVING, the dream that you wish
WILL come true.
Cinderella obviously didn't have very many sleepless nights. It is a nice concept...and dreams do sometimes take away the pain-momentarily. Its waking up thats the real tragedy. That moment between dreaming and waking when the clarity is blurred and you remember what real life is. When you forget that your dream was only a dream...and then for some reason its hard to come back to terms with reality; because, you just spent the last however many hours pretending it wasn't real. And sometimes, we can actually convince ourselves that our dreams are real...it makes waking up that much harder. I do wish sleep could help me to escape longer...if I could find a way to actually fall asleep and STAY asleep.
I guess the only way to truly know HOW you feel or WHAT your wish is, is to fall asleep...then you can't lie about it, you can't deny the truth and somewhere within yourself you have to find a place to acknowledge that desire. Its a difficult thing to face because the possibility that it won't come true is always lingering. It doesn't usually occur to me that things won't work out. I want to believe that wonderful things will happen but realistically they just don't. And sad to say, it seems to fall apart all together at the same time..everything just dies and you have to find a way to start over. That's the real challenge. I guess Cinderella never had to wake up.
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